I'm losing it. My life now is somewhat like a Tetris game which I'm losing. You know, when all the wrong blocks start to take up space and pile up while you frantically try to push them into the right spaces. It's not working. Everything is going wrong.
Give me a reason to stop these tears. I don't ask to smile. That would be too ambitious. If I could just stop crying...
My initiatives to improve my life are not moving, even those very straightforward ones. I want to scream for help out of this trench I've fallen into. I want someone to tell me that it'll be okay, and to mean it.
I have no one to call, and knowing that just makes it worse. I can only scream silently and languish in the pain of being alone, all alone in this world.
Oh. My. God. Somebody save me! I can't do this. I can't hold on. I'm losing it.
I know nobody's coming.
I know nobody understands.
I'm going to die. In this trench. Of thirst for love and happiness, of hunger for life.
How long more do I have, Doctor?